i’m so overwhelmed and scared 

i just wish i could express everything that i feel. i feel all these things but i’m not able to express them in a healthy way. you have to deal with all that and i’m really sorry. tonight should have never happened this way. i don’t know how exactly we’re going to get through it but we will. that’s what we’ve promised each other. i just don’t know how to get myself back on track emotionally. 

but i love you. this is now in the past like everything else. just move forward.